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friends only. [15 Mar 2004|05:40pm]
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[14 Mar 2004|06:34pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

yacki came to pick me up after sat prep. class. and we fed the squirrels. we took pictures. i bought a bukowski book. we smoked cigarettes. we got coffee. we bought bodyspray from bath and body works. i'm not sure what scent she got, but i got raspberry. we went in to the pet shop and we looked at the fish for a few minutes. i think i am going to get 2. maybe they'll be lovers.

i am getting my permit on st. patrick's day and enrolling for drivers ed. i can't wait to drive and go places?

i am probably going to the pretty girls make graves show. i doubt it. i would feel weird. my mom said yes and now the rest is up to me. i will probably end up buying the tickets and then not going. i'm good at wasting my money like that.

i'm going to add pictures of our day later. so come back.

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[13 Mar 2004|07:17pm]
[ mood | sad ]

on my way home i walked in to dunk'n donuts for a cup of coffee and this scenster looking kid started conversation with me. he asked me where i went to school and if i lived around the neighborhood. he also asked what music i was in to. i just kept giving him yes and no answers and for the bands i said, "i listen to a lot." and he was like, "do you listen to indie?" i was like, "no." hahaha. i was shy. and he probably saw my modest mouse t-shirt. i feel dumb. i walked out and didn't even say bye or anything. i didn't even buy anything.

he was probably like, "wtf?! bitch."

then i ran home because it was dark and i was scared.

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[12 Mar 2004|07:14pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

i'm so tired.

i can't wait to be on my way to see michael.

i'm so nervous. ;\

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[11 Mar 2004|11:59pm]
join _for_lovers
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el esta abriendo su mochilla! [10 Mar 2004|08:03pm]
[ mood | sexy! ]

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[09 Mar 2004|06:02pm]
[ mood | drunk ]

it's only 6pm and i am a little tipsy. it is taking 5 yrs. to write this lj entry because i have to keep going back and correct my typos. chinese friends of the family stopped by for dinner and we all drank chinese liquor. my grandma and i just laughed for an hour straight because she said, "i like that tropical drink called a fuck on the beach." and i was like, "GRANDMA!" GAAAASP. and she farted. and then she was like, "i mean... sex on the beach." i laughed for, like, 10 minutes and the food was coming out of my mouth. it was sooo weird. i felt like i was in the twilight zone with a cackling old lady. i still am in the twilight zone.

now i'm gonna' do the hustle. brb.

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rock you, bebe. [08 Mar 2004|06:04pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

you got to feel the heat
and we can ride the boogie
share that beat of love

i wanna' rock with you aaaaall night.

;; i've seen 6 shooting stars show me! ;;

[07 Mar 2004|08:19pm]
[ mood | bored ]

lipstick and messy hair. ;|

and you can't see mah' eyes.

my boobs be bustin' out dis shit, yo!

i'm out, yo! ONE.

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[06 Mar 2004|10:54pm]
[ mood | tired ]

i had fun today, but i came home.
i was bored so i took these...

pearls and a knitted white sweater over a pink t-shirt.
i looked like a little grandma. :D

;; i've seen 10 shooting stars show me! ;;

[05 Mar 2004|08:38pm]
[ mood | tired ]

today was decent. i went to school and then went to nicole's house afterwards. she had her knee operated on so i went to make her feel better. we ordered in pizza and watched the lion king. at least this time i didn't cry when mufasa died. i think i have seen it too many times, but i sure did frown and furrow my brows. her little brother was screaming in my ear so i think that was a little distracting from the sorrow.

ok. so i was pretty close to crying. like you didn't cry when you saw bambi.

i start sat prep classes tomorrow morning. they're over at 12. so if you want to hang out give my cell a ring. i'll be in forest hills. i am going to look hott tomorrow morning so i will take pictures.

check back for a picture update. i love you guys.

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[04 Mar 2004|05:14pm]
[ mood | curious ]

i love dancing.

i like american music, baby.

ew. my school shoes smell like someone died. ugh.

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[03 Mar 2004|10:42pm]
[ mood | shitty ]

k. today sucked so hard. i got up extra early, went to school, came home, napped, and started fucking hw. i hate school. i hate my english class.

oh yeah -- i tried to take pictures and they all deleted. :| i am so pissed.

cheer me up?

... plz. ;|

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[01 Mar 2004|08:38pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

all around me are familiar faces
worn out places, worn out faces
bright and early for the daily races
going nowhere, going nowhere
their tears are filling up their glasses
no expression, no expression
hide my head, i want to drown my sorrow
no tomorrow, no tomorrow

and i find it kind of funny
i find it kind of sad
the dreams in which i'm dying
are the best i've ever had
i find it hard to tell you
i find it hard to take
when people run in circles
it's a very, very mad world
mad world

children waiting for the day they feel good
happy birthday, happy birthday
and i feel the way that every child should
sit and listen, sit and listen
went to school and i was very nervous
no one knew me, no one knew me
hello teacher, tell me what's my lesson
look right through me, look right through me

and i find it kind of funny
i find it kind of sad
the dreams in which i'm dying
are the best i've ever had
i find it hard to tell you
i find it hard to take
when people run in circles
it's a very, very mad world
mad world

-- mad world
gary jules

dear lover,
i really miss you though i have not met you. i really love you though i still don't know you. i hope you are looking for me because sure am looking for you. and even though we don't know where each other are i am determined that we will find one another. i know you exist and i already know you love me just as i love you. if you are like me when i write this letter, you are thinking about me right now. well, you are not thinking about me, but you are thinking about someone that you love and loves you too. it's me. i wish i could tell you. i wish i could just yell, "it's me!" i wish you would hear me and find me. i wish you would save me.

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[29 Feb 2004|06:37pm]
[ mood | happy ]

today yacki and i went out. she got a caramel frap and i got a strawberry bubbletea milkshake. we had a lot of fun feeding the pigeons afterwards. here are some pictures from our day.

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[28 Feb 2004|06:36pm]
[ mood | hungover. ]

friday after school dahlia met up with me. we went to forest hills, bought 40s, and chain smoked for a little bit. oh yeah -- she just had to buy lemons for her beer. i felt so dumb with the 40s in my book-bag. well, 2 in my book-bag and 1 in my purse. the book-bag had taken the shape of 2 bottles and they were clanking as i walked past the police station. that was kind of funny.

we came back to my house and took pictures. then we put on our pajamas and watched van wilder! funny movie. i have seen it at least 5 times. national lampoon is funny. after that we drank. i drank two 40s. and that is all i remember. haha. oh no. i woke up with dahlia cuddled close to me and i was like, "uh-oh." but then i realized sex would have been too good to forget.

this morning we went to forest hills and chain smoked some more. so much for quitting although i don't smoke as much during the week anymore. well, that's all kiddies!

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[25 Feb 2004|04:03pm]
[ mood | holy. ]

school was okay. we had mass and i got my ashes. i am getting my nails done later because i broke one. ay dios mio.

i got ashes.

it is ash wednesday.

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[24 Feb 2004|07:34pm]
[ mood | scared ]

i am entering a school poetry contest. i am kind of nervous about it. my brother's ex-wife passed away today. sad day. i am sorry people have to go away. i feel death before it comes. last night i cried thinking about if my grandmother were to die and today someone dies. the last time something like this happened, it was with my uncle. i had a dream he died, but three days later he called me to tell me his father died. i am scared of my own thoughts and i think it is my fault for some reason. i want it to stop.

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[23 Feb 2004|05:51pm]
[ mood | amused ]

school again. blah blah blah. maybe i'll have more to say later.
this is the worst lj post ever.

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[22 Feb 2004|01:11am]
[ mood | content ]

the rest of my day was ok considering i did nothing. ok so i was painfully bored. at least i was grounded today and tomorrow and not the entire february break. hmmm... my lava lamp reminds me of red blood cells.

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